The real world.

      The upcoming school year is making me realize alot of things. I am going to be an adult soon, I have to actually go live in this big world that can be scary at times. Paying bills, relationships, my career and raising a family are things Im afraid of but excited for. The biggest thing that I hope I never experince is failure. I don't want to grow up and become nothing I want acheive something let my name be known and have a positive influence in someones life. The college searching is nerve racking, especially when you actually apply. It's a crazy long form and it just makes me shiver in my socks that I know they're going to judge me based on my G.P.A. and my test score and maybe my essay. Then if Im not accepted is it because if my grades or my ACT or was it the activites I did and my essay. Thats one thing that scares me a whole lot. Im going to try to not take a rejection letter as them me rejecting me as a person but as a student who wasn't a right fit for their school. The?n when I actually go to college will I make new friends, will I be able to take the course load? Will I be accepted to pledge the sorority that i've been dreaming of since I was little? Am I going to have a bad roomate? What if I end up not liking the school in the first place? Those are questions that have been running through my head all summer.
      Well the part that is sad for me is leaving High school. I was never the biggest fan of my school but Im actually going to miss it. I have really good friends and thats something allot of people never get in highschool. But I have them and Im going to miss them I know we all are going our seperate ways after highschool and Im happy that all of us are doing what we want in life but... I don't know what I'll do without em. Then its my four underclassmen buddies and friends that Im going to miss Im really really really going to miss one of them allot but I have a feeling I'll see her again one day so Im good. On the last few days of senior year Im going to have a fudge this school anyway thing and at the same time cry like the big baby that I am. But I'll try to keep in contact everyone :)  Man my eyes water even thinking about this but I know one thing that one of my old friends told me about graduating high school. And I'll try keep this in mind.
"Its not the end, its only the beginning"